I have spent the past two weeks basically doing not much,this is not a state I am used to.I am used to rushing round and never having enough hours in the day for the things I need to do. Leaving the house at Seven working all day getting back at about quarter to seven at night,having evening meal ( when I remember) hitting the books,writing,reading,bath and bed,next day repeat.With the odd night off to go out with friends.
So this two weeks has been very strange for me,but it has also been demoralising,maybe it is too much time to think,whatever it is I have found my self confidence being eroded,slowly each day another little piece has gone. I am basically a shy person,in fact a very shy person,I may not come across that way on here but on here I use the written word which i have no problem with.I have of the occasion taken the initiative to text someone first,or to mail someone first,again it is the written word not a problem.I have found myself getting to the point of saying whats the point? The meeting tomorrow with 'the big guys' I had no plans to dress other than the way I have been for the past week trousers jumper,nothing classy in fact a little dowdy really,because whats the point? In fact at one stage yesterday and this morning I felt like ringing them and saying I`m not going to be there because whats the point?
But then a couple of things happened,one was the obtaining of something I had been waiting for.
The second was two phone calls,from the same person.The first one was so unexpected and as I say I am basically shy so I either come over as too chatty or not chatty enough.But what was so good about these unexpected calls apart from getting to talk to a nice person,was what was said.It was said in the first call and it was only a few words,but it was all I needed to say wait a minute,there is a point!!
So I will be wearing something classy ( but not overly so) and I will be going,and I wont let them have it all thier own way.
See sometimes thats all it takes a few words.
Sometimes friends are all you need.
So thankyou Friend
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TheRetard
- 2006-02-02 @ 21:50:31
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lyndlj
- 2006-02-02 @ 22:28:55
We all need just a little luck sometimes,but I am more confidant now.
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- http://vintagealamode.blog.co.uk
- 2006-02-02 @ 21:52:22
Sooooooo true. Glad you feel motivated. I felt a bit down on Monday, and one received phone call led to a meeting and basically kickstarted the week into the blinder it has become and promises to be...
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lyndlj
- 2006-02-02 @ 22:29:57
I am so glad you are having a good week,I hope it keeps on that way for you.
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- 2006-02-02 @ 22:01:20
Karma.
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skip2468
- 2006-02-03 @ 01:50:41
Yes, attitude is a big thing - inwardly and outwardly - if you follow me???
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lyndlj
- 2006-02-03 @ 01:53:09
I think I do Skip I think I do.
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- http://www.slowlife.blog.co.uk
- 2006-02-03 @ 11:23:13
I think I'm missing something here, like with the 2 big guys and stuff... maybe I need to read back a little...
Anyway, glad those phone calls gave you a lift
take care x-
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lyndlj
- 2006-02-03 @ 12:29:57
I had a grievence meeting this morning,it was being chaired by two gentlemen,I raised the Grievence because of the way I had been treated at an earlier meeting.
Thanks you too,and dont stay away so long -
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Kizlode
- 2006-02-03 @ 13:40:55
I agree with you about friends, I have found them to be so important in my life over the last few years. They are sometimes the only ones who can lift you when you are feeling low, can support you when you are feeling unsure and (if needed) that you will allow to kick you up the arse when you really need it.
Love, peace and happiness.
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lyndlj
- 2006-02-03 @ 14:56:43
This friend did all three of those,lol,and yes it was just what I needed for when I went today I had the upper edge and was confidant and sure of myself.
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evilmomlady
- 2006-02-03 @ 16:30:00
I'm glad your friend was able to help you in this way. Sometimes that's all it needs - words.
Do you know what the outcome of the meeting today was? I hope it was good.
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evilmomlady
- 2006-02-03 @ 16:39:25
Oh, oh. Only responded to half of what I intended to. I wanted to ask if you've got all your confidence back? I know it can be difficult, but you aren't your job, that's not what makes you a valuable person to others - you're mother, grandmother, daughter, sister, friend, poet, student - these are what is valuable. These are what you should base your confidence on. Only a thought really. I suppose you should base your confidence on whatever makes you feel good, on what you value in your life. Shyness is difficult to deal with - I was very shy as a child, so I know. What a blessing blog sites are.
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lyndlj
- 2006-02-03 @ 16:49:41
I was reminded of that yesterday not in so many words though,thing is it has been the not being anything ( as I saw it) over the past few weeks,not having to rush around and fit all the things into the few hours,not having to sort everything out,not having the phone ring every ten minutes with some problem or other.
And yes I walked into that meeting this morning full of confidence and choked with cold,lol.I was dressed casually but smartly and I knew exactly what I needed to say and said it.
We will see now what they do.
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evilmomlady
- 2006-02-03 @ 17:36:23
Mm, yes, I understand.
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Good luck! Not that you need luck..