I just had it,here I sit going on for five in the morning not yet been to bed,not wanting or needing sleep ( well not yet but I am going to try when I finish this)I had some strange things happen to me tonight,I discussed this with a friend and he seemed to think as I did that there was something waiting for me to read it.I couldn`t find what it was,untill a little while ago,and I came across this piece on the blog of a friend of mine http://sacked.blog.co.uk go to his last entry of last night and in the comments you will find a link,click on it and read one of the bravest stories I have heard in a long while.It sure put my problems in perspective I can tell you.
For weeks now I have been on enforced leave and slowly have been allowing myself to get a little more depressed every day,I am not used to having to find things to fill my time with,not used to having time to fill normally I dont have enough. Not concentrating on my studies properly,not wanting to do very much at all really.Now I realise that I can concentrate if I just remember why I started all this studying in the first place,stop losing sight of what is important to me and start getting back that zest that I had that seemed to be fading,but now is back as strong as ever.Sometimes taking a long hard look at yourself and being totally honest with yourself is hard,but it needs to be done to enable you to get on and do what you are supposed to instead of sitting and waiting for something to happen.
Often we bemoan what is missing in our lives and forget about the things that we have,the things that make our lives what they are.Why worry about the things you can do nothing about? It is much better to get on with the things you can take control of,the things that you can change. And you never know the other things might just happen or appear along the way.