Just Me!! The Butterfly effect

I have spent the past two weeks basically doing not much,this is not a state I am used to.I am used to rushing round and never having enough hours in the day for the things I need to do. Leaving the house at Seven working all day getting back at about quarter to seven at night,having evening meal ( when I remember) hitting the books,writing,reading,bath and bed,next day repeat.With the odd night off to go out with friends.
So this two weeks has been very strange for me,but it has also been demoralising,maybe it is too much time to think,whatever it is I have found my self confidence being eroded,slowly each day another little piece has gone. I am basically a shy person,in fact a very shy person,I may not come across that way on here but on here I use the written word which i have no problem with.I have of the occasion taken the initiative to text someone first,or to mail someone first,again it is the written word not a problem.I have found myself getting to the point of saying whats the point? The meeting tomorrow with 'the big guys' I had no plans to dress other than the way I have been for the past week trousers jumper,nothing classy in fact a little dowdy really,because whats the point? In fact at one stage yesterday and this morning I felt like ringing them and saying I`m not going to be there because whats the point?
But then a couple of things happened,one was the obtaining of something I had been waiting for.
The second was two phone calls,from the same person.The first one was so unexpected and as I say I am basically shy so I either come over as too chatty or not chatty enough.But what was so good about these unexpected calls apart from getting to talk to a nice person,was what was said.It was said in the first call and it was only a few words,but it was all I needed to say wait a minute,there is a point!!
So I will be wearing something classy ( but not overly so) and I will be going,and I wont let them have it all thier own way.
See sometimes thats all it takes a few words.
Sometimes friends are all you need.
So thankyou Friend

Well ok,I have apparently been tagged by the Purple Dragon,my fault for being nosey If you want to know how go here http://purpledragon.blog.co.uk

Well Yesterday I got up.
I made a coffee.
Checked my emails
Went and said hi to some friends on one of the sites I frequent.
Checked the two sites I am assistant manager and moderator of respectively.
Checked on my blog friends.
Turned the comp off and went to other desk and worked on the books for a while.
Then went into town to see a friend and get some info for the little'job' he wanted doing.
Came home had a bacon and mushroom sandwhich with brown sauce.
Hit the books again.
Did some more blogging.
Drank way too much coffee
Chatted with some friends
Drank even more coffee!

Wasteland
The creak of leather on horses as they stand side by side.
The blue and they grey facing across the divide,
Bedraggled and dirty,weary,hungry and cold
Bleak looks on the faces of the young and the old.
So proud they did stand when the battle was new,
Now days take thier toll,survivors are few.
The Captains had met in the dark hours of night,
They said before dawn they would end this fight.
For days they had fought,neither side backing down,
The noise of cannons and gunfire echoing around.
Now the captains were weary,too many lay dead,
And the bridge that they fought for spanned a river of red.
They stood on the banks praying for those they had known,
Then saluting each other they turned,to make thier way home.
The once stately trees are blackened and charred.
The beautiful meadow is sparse now and scarred.
And here comes the sun with paintbrush in hand,
To paint a fiery red dawn across this wasteland.