Of emotions right at the moment.Happy,sad,annoyed,humbled,pleased,tired,yes very tired.
Happy and overwhelmed at the response of people that voted for me in the Bloscars,thank you all very much,reading those comments last night/this morning ( I am losing track of time now,lol ) well I cant describe how it made me feel,but I can say that no actress could have felt better recieving an Oscar than I did reading that. I know this was all done in a spirit of fun,and it has been fun,but if everyone else that won felt like I did/do then they will say too even though it was fun what a lovely feeling to know that so many people actually voted for you. So a huge thankyou.
And to Paddy for thinking of it,organising it and making it such fun,I am sure we all want to say thankyou.
And on to the rest of the emotions. My daughter nicely flying high because of this windfall she had was brought down to earth with a crash yesterday teatime when her boyfriend decided to dump her.Apparently he doesn`t want commitment,he spent the last six months winning the chidren round and now doesn`t want to know. And I am annoyed at him for what he has done and sad because I cant help her,there is nothing I can do at all to take away what she is feeling right now. She has spent most of the afternoon and evening here,I made them all thier tea. I can see it in her face and hear it in her voice and last night when she said to me " mam what is wrong with me" I felt so helpless. Reassuring her that it is his loss and there is nothing wrong with her doesn`t help really though hopefully it will eventually.
So soggy shoulders and a feeling of helplessness because there really isn`t anything I can do.
I also had another meeting today with my soon-to-be-ex-bosses,grrrrr,is all I can say to that.
Though it has been an exceptionally lovely day and the journey was really nice,though standing on train pplatforms in the cold isn`t normally my idea of a fun morning. The sun was shining and the sky was blue and the scenery looked lovely with the sun glinting off the river as we passed over it and at the side of it.
I might even get some sleep tonight;)