I could do with it,I started the day in a bright and breezy mood despite the thudding headache that I had carried through from yesterday.I decided just short bursts on the computer and not too much bookwork(despite the essay due in next week) would see the headache diminish.
A walk in the fresh air and maybe a trip to the supermarket to buy that stuff called food that everyone keeps telling me I have to have.
This is where a few of the old sayings that I have learnt over the years ( that most people know) should have been heeded,ones like 'Dont run before you can walk' and 'Practice what you preach' but I have been doing so well,and after yesterday I really convinced myself that I was getting there. Taking daily trips out,amongst people,alright normally when it isn`t too busy but I was doing it and yesterday nothing no panic feelings,no sweats everything was fine.
Only today is Friday,I was unconcerned this was going to be a big test,and I was going to pass. Only I didn`t pass I failed miserably
One of the things I always advise,take it one step at a time,one day at a time.Dont be in too much of a hurry to prove you can do it because there are good days and bad days.Well I ignored my own advice and today was a very bad day
It took me three hours of perusing blogs and cleaning and stuff to calm me down. A little chat with Hobbit about flowers and unromantic guys helped,thanks Lisa. I sorted my wardrobe,and found all manner of things to do,eventually taking a walk down by the river where it was peaceful and calm and sitting on a very wet bank and watching the birds nesting.
I was very wet and very cold when I realised I had been sat there for two hours!!
The Destructor arrived and I set about making tea,which is when I apparently decided to try and slice my finger off,it wasn`t a conscious decision,more a not watching what I was doing sort of one
So here I sit with bandaged finger,trying to type and feeling really very stupid
And they say it is going to snow too.
But,I have lovely music on and a nice hot cup of coffee and my son brought me some Dark choccie biccies(since I didn`t manage to buy any of that stuff called food) and life is far too short to dwell on bad things.
After all tomorrow is another day
Drinking....Coffee
Listening to....( Goddam right) Its a beautiful Day..EEls
