Just Me!! The Butterfly effect

See I dont get all this backbiting tittle tattling,all this you said this and you have done that. If you have a problem with me,ask me,if you think I have done something wrong tell me waht you think I have done and I will tell you if I have or not. If you have so called evidence that I have done this thing then produce it,show me the evidence.
Lifes_lessons ( Phillip) now you really surprise me,I have emails from you saying how much I have helped you,nice sweet emails,and yes I can produce them should I need to. So I am asking you on open blog what is it about me that you dont like? What exactly am I supposed to have done to you? You see I have only ever left good comments on your blog for which I have had nice replies.
And anyone else that wants to have a go well here you are,here is your chance. Do you think that I am going to roll over and play dead? Do you think that I am going to wipe my blogs and slink off into the night?
The answer is No I will not, I have one account off which I run three blogs,so tell me who you think I am besides me. Because I am sure that I will find it amusing.
You have done something that not many people do and that is angered me. I am angry about this,I am not a saint,I am not even the nicest person you will ever meet,but I am not a liar.
And those that know me even a little know that this is a pile of twaddle.
Either show me evidence ( of which there is none) or take your petted little jealousies away and leave people alone.

Throughout my life there have been many times when I am invisible, noone sees or hears me,I`m not really there,a shadow walking through the land of the living,observing,listening,seeing. This is an ability I developed in childhood,a knack of hiding away,of being unobserved.Developed through necessity,through the fear of being seen,of having to join in,having to talk to people that were different to me,whose lives were different to mine. The fear that someone would see and would know what my life was. It also served to stop the bullies,if they couldn`t see me,if I didn`t stand out they would leave me alone.It didn`t always work but on the whole it served its purpose. I stumbled through my childhood and into early adulthood,being ' Mother' to the younger siblings,and other things that occured throughout that time made me older than my years,wiser than my school companions,different,aloof. I yearned to have the special friendships I saw others had,someone that I could talk to and confide in,a buffer between the realities of home and the outside realities of the world. Yet at the same time I was scared to have that,what if I said too much? What if I found a best friend and she discovered what my life was like and turned her back on me,that would be worse than never having one. So I stumbled on alone,the friendships I made shallow and superficial. I became a mother,without the blessing of friends to share this wonderful experience with,it made it no less wonderful. I stumbled on.
Then one day someone came to me and they said,thankyou,you helped me so much,without you I would not be here today. And I was shocked,taken aback,for I had not dived into raging waters and pulled them out,I had not braved dangers to rescue them from imminent demise. I had merely talked to them,with them. I had mostly let them talk and I had listened and I had talked a little,seeing what they were telling me and immediately knowing what they were trying to say.Yet this act had rendered me no longer invisible. I had discovered something that I could do,that I was good at,something that I had always done yet never thought about,but people had noticed,people actually sought me out to do this thing for them. And all I did was listen.
I came out into the light,after years of being invisible I was now seen. And I found that special friend,the one that is always there even if you dont see each other for weeks or months,when you speak its like yesterday. I am godmother to her children. And since,I have found even more special friends,wonderful,warm human beings that make me feel like I am special,that I am worth something.These are the people that make me shine.