Another restless night and no nearer completing what I have to do. I think sometimes that I have taken on more than I am capable of. Perhaps I dont have what it takes after all. Then I think about the people that believe in me and support me,and I know I can do this,will do this. I guess it is just when I have times like this weekend when nothing goes right and there are so many things that get in the way. There again I have always worked better under pressure,always produced my best when the deadline looms. Lets hope that holds true in my exam next month and the one in October.Right now I dont see me passing either of them. But they are a while away yet so I may feel differently by then.
The storm that so neatly interupted me yesterday has rumbled round all night but it hasn`t cooled down,if anything it is more humid than it was.It is becoming more like the tropics this sunshine,instead of the dry heat that you associate with British summers it is the Humid heat of places like Malaya. Global warming,maybe it will get to the stage where we will be the holiday island and St Tropez will become a cheap place to visit. I have always wanted to go to St Lucia,of course at £2000 a time just for room and board thats a long way off if ever,and that is only for a week.Course places like that dont really bother me as I will be going to the place I have always dreamed of going next year,complete with a tour of the second biggest Crime Lab in the United States,Las Vegas,the tour has been arranged for me courtesy of friends over there,I am so looking forward to that.Though the America fund is sadly lacking at the moment.
Monday morning,dont you just love it,another week of work to look forward to
To sit and float away in dream
Beside the silver tinkling stream.
To sit and while away the hours
In greenest grass and sweetest flowers
To still the rush of working day
And spend the time in laughing play.
To lay down books, papers and pen.
Just sometimes,to be back there again.
