A nice refreshing walk in the rain, only very light rain, but it was very refreshing, plating hide and seek with the Molly while we took our morning stroll, no wonder this lot round here thing I am nuts
But I dont care we had fun, and Molly is now sulking because I am upstairs and she doesn't want me to be, she is getting too used to me being here through the day, she will pine next week when I am back at work.
It is strange the things that we get used to, when I think of how much my life has changed. Once my days were full of children and their needs and wants, from getting them up in a morning to them going o bed at night, it often seemed as if there were not enough hours in a day for all that needed doing.
And then one day they were alll gone, each living their own life and the house was empty, quiet, peaceful. At first it was hard to adjust to the new found peace, but now I cherish it, that and the space and the cleanliness.
Every so often, when I am relaxing, half here and not, I hear the echoes of their childhood, the laughing, giggling, playing, as though they were outside the door, playing the games they played. Though when I open my eyes, come back to earth they are not. It sounds like I yearn for those times back, I dont. I enjoyed my time with them as they grew, now I am enjoying my time without them while I do.
Someone once said you should never go back, what they meant was in terms of where you live and how, they were right though I didnt see it then, I wanted to live by my precious woods, where I grew up, I should have known that it would bring me nothing but loss and pain in the end, after all it did in the beginning, all those years ago.
And that is what it brought me, and a lesson learned, still I have moved on now, and even though I love the woods, I can go visit them whenever I like they are not that far away. In fact I can see the tops of the trees from my window right now, and perhaps it wasn't the place that was the problem, but wanting too much too fast, and putting the children before myself again, resulting in my losing the one place that I had ever been able to call mine.
But, life moves on, and it no longer bothers me, whats done is done, we can only look to what is hopefully a brighter future ahead.
Now time to think about going and getting the munchkins out of bed, some things never change 
