Very grey and overcast here again today, seems June is going to start wet and warm, as it was warm last night or was that just me? The Sun is peeping, I saw her when the clouds broke a while ago, but now she is hiding again. And over to the left of the valley there is blue sky, so maybe we will see some of it before the day is out?
Fatals been telling jokes and now I cant think of what I was going to write, well they were funny!
I was thinking last night about how courage is a strange thing that comes in many guises, and often is not recognised by most, and that is because most dont realise that the person being couragous is being so, for instance when I finally stood up to the Male Parent, this was not noticed as a supreme act of courage by anyone but me, because noone else saw it, and if they had they would not have understood what it had taken to do it. Or what it cost me, and it did dearly, but the courage didnt disappear it grew and gave me the strength to finally get out, though it was out of the frying pan into the fire so to speak.
For a while after I entered the fire I was again the meek and obediant one, people that know me now would never believe that I had ever been that way, but it was like a resignation that I could never escape this world that I had been thrown into, first one and then the other, untill he raised his hand to my daughter, from then on things changed, I had fought back and that wasn't done. There was a new fear in him, I was not such a pushover anymore.
It took time, and yet I was finally emerging as a person in my own right and not just a chattel that belonged to someone else that they could use and abuse as they desired. I went from strength to strength and began to see a time when all would be well.
It is amazing how the Human spirit can survive so much and still come out singing, even if sometimes it is a sad song, I have watched women emerge from the worst of times and bloom, much like a rose in a patch of brambles, I have watched men that had been written off as nobodies and worth nothing, rise and become somebody that people admire and envy. I have watched people abandoned in the gutter of life (so to speak) shake themselves off and soar higher than anyone could ever have imagined. Their own strength and courage did this, a courage that most dont see or acknowledge.
Courage isn't always about fighting large beasts or going to war, it isn't always about tackling the bad guys, like cops and robbers. Often it is about simply walking through the door and facing the day and the world outside. It is about being able to walk away from a life that may kill you in the end, it is about simply being it is unrecognised by many, because they dont see what is within you, or what goes on behind closed doors.
And now it is time for me to swap my mantel of Philosophy for one of counsellor and whatever else I am required to be today, another long working day ahead, but only two more to go after today 
Have a great day, catch you all later 