Just Me!! The Butterfly effect

Right I know you are all dying to know how my first day back after nearly five weeks went. Well, where do I start?

You remember I told you thay had brought in two full time temps to do my job? Well they did better than that, they took the three divisions that I ran and split them into one division of one and one division of two, they have two full time people running the big one and one full time running the small one, thats three full timers doing what I did

And then came the surprise, the lady that has taken over the running of the full department that includes the divisions that I ran is a lady I worked with when I first joined the company last year. We get on really well, always have done, in fact it was a case I did for her that started the critical illness division. We have worked together on and off for the past year. And we always find time to at least say hello and have a little chat.

She has a unique position in the company, she goes around different departments and pulls them up by the boot straps and breathes new life into them. She streamlines things and gets them working efficently. She had a meeting with me today, she informs me that over the past months she has been watching our department, and that she has decided I am no longer doing the three divisions that I did, because apparently she has seen how I do all my own work and everyone elses, she has seen how all calls are shunted over to me, purely because the others cannot be bothered. She has watched me juggle and try to contend with a work load that it is now taking three people to do and she has decided enough is enough.

She has moved me on to complaints because she knows I can talk to people, she knows that I have a way with people that she says is unique. My work load will be lighter, at any time I can say dont pass me any more I have enough to do. She has me sat with her because she knows she can ask me a question about any division within the department and I can answer it, she knows she can ask me about any creditor and I will know, she knows that she can ask my opinion and get an honest answer.

And besides that we can have a laugh together

These first two days back are to ease me into it gradual, and to be honest I was bored today, am not used to such a light workload, course that wont last

So there you have it. Not very exciting is it?

My post this morning seems to have got people thinking? But that can only be a good thinkg, right?

The things that I said were not aimed at any specific person, they were just thoughts, I am not going to apologise for writing them, as then there would have been no point in it.

I think a great many of the people on blogland are themselves, see they dont need to be anything/one else do they? And I have met some of them, and I can quite honestly say that I would have known who each and every one of them was without having to be introduced simply by reading their blogs and chatting in comments.

As some of you so rightly pointed out, we all have personas we wear for different things, the difference between those and the disguises I refer to are essentially you are still you and I am still me even while wearing them. Look at it in this way, at work you wear the work persona, it is still you but the way in which you act is different because it is work, you dont tell your work mates all about your life, no more than they do.

I have been called the Ice Queen, a cold hearted Bitch, more times than I can remember, yet when I once stated that to my friends they were astonished that anyone would think that of me. And yet I can be, and thats because I hide that part of me from strangers, yet at work it often comes out. I am essentially a warm person, but that often gives people the wrong impression and makes them think that I am a push over. I am very far from a pushover, I was once, but too many people pushed and too many people took advantage.

And if you understood one word of all this, you are a brainiac

And if you actually read this far, well done that makes you as nuts as me

I am not a wise person, such as a Shayman or a philosopher of repute, I am just a person that has seen much, heard more and thinks far too much and too often for their own good.

When I give 'advice' it is based on my own experiences and what I know of people. I know a lot about people, I have studied them for a long time, there are good and bad and then there are those that people think are good and though they are not really bad they have a very selfish agenda. They go around making people think they are good and it is because they want people to notice them, they want to be liked, and they dont realise that just being themselves would get them that, so they wear a persona and no one gets to know the real person underneath. The person they are afraid to show. It's a shame really because the person inside is usually a really nice person.

I used to think that I had to be this other person for people to notice me, then I realised it didnt matter whether they noticed me or not, I was me, despite other people, or maybe because of, who knows? Being me is a lot more fun than being who others want me to be, it means I can honestly say things and know that it is my words and my thoughts and not an echo of someone else. I live in noones shadow, not any more.

I have this habit of believeing that things will come right, in the end, and often get myself into all sorts of bother before they do, thats me, stumble from one mess to another, but it comes good in the end, sometimes.

It is back to work today, that is going to be fun, probably take me all morning just to read my emails

Have a good day whatever you are doing

Catch you later