Just Me!! The Butterfly effect

On one side through one set of windows the sun is shining and the sky is blue, on the other side through the other window the sky is black and grey and ominous. A bit like my life at the moment, one part is sunny and bright, but on the fringes hovering are the dark clouds and the blackness.

At times like this I look for the good things, and they are there, all around, turn my face towards the sun and turn my back on the black clouds. Not always easy, I mess up, I mess up a lot, sometimes too much. I get myself into situations and have to fight then to get out of them. I dont blame others it is my own fault, part of who I am, just sometimes I tend to rely on luck I dont have, that I never seem to have, well apart from bad. Thats life I guess, and we have to take the good with the bad.

And now the sun is shining on both sides, that has to be an omen dont you think?

Have a good evening my friends.

Happy Fourth of July to all our American friends out there. It is still grey here but that is only outside, inside the sun is shining.

There are very few people that see the real me, I can count on one hand the people that I am aware of that can see what I am about and who I am. That does not mean that I value the others any less, I dont, I value all my friends, each one has their own unique place in the world and in my life, each one gives to me something I could not find from another. A thousand tiny pieces in a jigsaw and they help to place them.

Each and every one of us is unique,we are all different yet we can embrace the difference of others and help them on their way to completing their own little jigsaw.

What was that speech in Independance Day? Ah yes "We will not go quietly into the night" thats my favourite bit of that film,though my voice may not be heard above the voices of others, I will be the one that has helped them to say what they have to say. Much like writing that speech, only it will be in giving them the courage and the ability to speak it.

Grand dreams and schemes are these not what keeps us going? What makes us reach for that next step?

We fight for what we believe in, people are what I believe in,sometimes people lose their way, I have lost mine often enough. And I will hopefully be the one that will help them to find it again. God willing, and hard work of course.

Right off to do whatever I cn find to do, have a great Independance day my American friends, and have a great day to all my other friends.