I started to write a long rambly post about nonsense and nothing, but to be honest I dont have the heart or the energy to do frivolous and fun.

It seems the harder I try to climb out of this black hole the further down I fall, no matter what I do, no matter how much I do, there just seems to be no way out, and I have had enough of trying just to have the rug pulled out from under me or the ladder rungs collapsing.

Even the weather matches my mood with a black sky and rain, no silver lining in sight.

The unemployment have once again not paid me, this time no one seems to know why? It should have been paid they say, and they will reissue, which means even longer waiting as they refuse to give me a counter payment, as I pointed out to them, were I on drugs or an alcoholic they would have paid me within the hour, but people that have worked years to keep those people in payments dont get those priviledges.

Just one more thing in a weekend of bad things, which means it looks like the week is going to continue int he same vein as the weekend.

I think it's time I just gave up, whats the point?

No more posts for a while, not until I can be more positive.