I was reading Mala's blog the other day and she had this question on it

'How do you measure your self worth? By what you do or by who you are?'

I read Mala's answer and I read the many comments she received, and it got me to thinking quite a bit about worth, your own, friends, relations, because we are all made up of the people and events that surround us, but is that what makes us, us, or is us being us what makes the people and events what they are?

For many years I believed that my only worth was in doing the bidding of others, me as in 'I' did not exist in any other place than the imagination and the long dark nights while I lay awake fervently praying that I would be taken away if not by death then by some magical and wonderful creature that would award me the same kind of freedom. A child of 8/10/12 should not wish for death or freedom, they should already be free to run and play and enjoy life, something I vowed that mine would do and would be, when my prayers went unanswered in any form.

But lets look at it in greater detail, what is self worth? What does it exactly mean? It is supposedly a value that you place upon yourself, how you view yourself at any given time, it amounts to your self esteem. So it can change given the mood you are in the circumstances and the role that you are considering.

My worth is in being me, not pretending to be someone I am not, in being true to the me that came out from the long dark night to find the sun on her face, despite the many black clouds that have passed over it through the years, despite the kicks and the knocks and the cussedness of life, I am and that is my worth.